"The God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast."
Do you ever take a moment to reflect and see how far you've come and the obstacles you've overcome in this race we call life? I ponder the things I've gone through and where I am today sometimes and I know that it was only by the strength that God provided me that I came through determined and more whole. I must admit that there were moments that I questioned, "God, how did you pull me through that?", or an even greater question, "God, why did you pull me through that?"
Do you ever question God as to why or how he did something in your life? I use to think that I wasn't allowed to question God but I was reminded that I am human and though I may try not to question God or his sovereignty (unlimited power), I do. And I really think it's OK for me to ask the questions that my mind just can't wrap itself around because afterall I am limited in my abilities to think beyond what I know and God is limitless because he is sovereign. It's humbling for me to be reminded of who he is and who I am and that only he holds all my answers and can restore my life.
There have been times in my life that professionals have questioned whether I was going to live or if my time on this side of heaven was over. It happened not long after my birth and it happened almost 20 years ago and honestly several times in between along the way. Due to circumstances, situations and people placed in my life there were times that my existence was put to the test and God said, No... it's not time. There was even a time when I prayed, "God let this be my time...I don't want to be here any longer." I entered a very dark place called depression and although I never harmed myself I prayed each morning and night that God would show mercy and remove me from this temporary home. Do you know how many people knew I was going through that at the time? Yep, you guessed it... no one but my God. He alone walked that journey with me and he restored my desire for life. He reminded me that I have a purpose and that He had a plan for me to fulfill. He also reminded me of the great love that he has for me. In that storm of my life, God restored the broken little girl inside me and strengthened me, firmed up my belief and faith in him and caused a steadfast walk that I knew I'd never walk alone.
I can't say that I don't still have struggles but I do know who to turn to when the waves come crashing down on me and I feel like I just can't make it. Do you know the master of your seas? Do you know the maker of all things in a very real and personal way? Do you rest in knowing that God has all the answers to the whys and hows and you need not be concerned about them? Is it time that you allow God to restore pieces of your life in making you whole again?
Blessings,
Heather
